Finding hope and an audience.

I’ve got that unsettled feeling again. The kind of “unsettled” that makes me want to get a tattoo. Or hit the road to a new city and get a tattoo when I get there.

I think I need to get in my car and drive all over the the face of the States playing my music for people. I think they want to hear it. I think there are people out there who will really need to hear my songs. In the same way I needed to hear Ani and Ben, Even though I didn’t know it until I heard them. I feel like I need to find those people who need my music. Because, while there are some of them here, that can only mean that there are more of them “out there.”

I need to start making myself more available to them. I need to go to them and not keep expecting that my audience will always know how to find me. I hope they choose to hear me. I hope they like what they hear long enough to stay and strike up a conversation with me afterwards.

I’ve been writing like a screaming banshee and I hope it sticks. I hope these chicken scratch scripts adhere to themselves in a singable way. I hope someone concurs with them. I hope I shatter someone like I’ve been shattered.

It’s the best kind of shattered and I don’t think I can explain it. The kind of inexplicable feeling that is so personal people write songs about it in order to bring a sense of definition to the experience. Like meditation or having an orgasm. I hope I can help someone become shattered. It’s a beautiful wreck of a feeling. I hope everyone feels this shattered at least once in their lives.

I’ve been shattered twice. And I hope that’s not all.

2 thoughts on “Finding hope and an audience.”

  1. Hi Emily!

    Just checking out your website for the first time! How are you?! It’s been ages. Well, I’m sure you knew, or maybe you didn’t, but my family and I moved to Austin, TX last summer. You should and need to come out here to perform; Austin IS live music capitol and I could totally see you living it up here. I have a yoga teacher/musician that you must meet when you do come out here. 🙂

    We still listen to your CD from time to time and think about that trip we took to the farm to celebrate your CD release party. What a blast! Even though we have known each other for a very short time, I am forever grateful for the gift you have given… good music for my soul… Thanks and I hope you’re doing great in SF! I miss California like you wouldn’t believe…

  2. Shelley, It’s good to hear from you. I will make it out to Austin sometime very soon.
    I’ll let you know when I do! California misses you right back.

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